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سایت http://www.godhelpmeplease.com ثابت کرد که اینترنت میتونه گاهی جون آدم ها رو نجات بده.
با این سایت به طور کاملا اتفاقی آشنا شدم.اگر از زندگی خسته شدید و فکر می کنید به آخر خط رسیدید شاید بهتر باشه یه سری به این سایت بزنید.این سایت یه مجموعه ی بی نظیر از خاطرات افرادیه که با معجزه و خواست خدا از خودکشی دست کشیدن،به خدا ایمان آوردن و زندگی مجددی رو آغاز کردن.با هم زندگی نامه Stephen Macafee رو که از این سایت برداشتم می خونیم.اگر با خوندن زندگی نامه Stephen Macafee اشک از چشماتون جاری نشد یا خیلی بی احساسید،یا با ذهنیت قبلی و تعصب داستان رو خوندید یا اینکه انگلیسیتون خیلی خوب نیست!
Hi, my name is Stephen Macafee I am 17 years old, I come from Canberra, A.C.T.,Australia, and this is my story…
Growing up for me was pretty hard, back in high school I was really depressed, I had absolutely no hope for the future, I wanted to kill myself almost everyday, I was into marijuana, and every now and then alcohol too. I had a little amount of friends, low self-esteem and no confidence, for every day in my life I was in despair, longing for something more, but never thinking that something more could exist. I have tried slitting my wrists several times, swallowing an overdose of pills, which led me to hospital and I had the doctor tell me if they didn't do something soon I would have died within two days, I was always just trying to find a way out of the dead dreariness of reality
My life was no kind of life, I was always depressed and down on myself, I really could not see anything ahead of me, I had to take anti-depressant pills, which hardly worked. I had to see psychiatrists all the time because that is how bad my depression was; my family had to have group sessions with psychiatrists because we had so many family problems, with me being the centre of attention. This was my life, depression, drugs, sadness, despair, and hopelessness. I was so miserable, was bad at school, had no hope, I just wanted salvation from all of this, and little did I know that I was destined to find it. I somewhat believed in God, but I did not know Him, it was just an affirmation that He might be real.
One day I was just typing random things into the Google search engine, because of how bored and depressed I was, I typed into the search "God help me please", and it literally came up with a website called Godhelpmeplease.com, which is this site. I clicked the contact link, and wrote an e-mail. I just poured out my heart about all the problems I had in my life, and I did not get a reply soon. This was because I had typed my e-mail address in wrong, not knowing it, and a month or two later I was messing around with google again; I typed my own name into it. To my surprise Godhelpmeplease.com came up again because my name was actually on the front page!
So I sent another e-mail to them, and they sent one back basically saying sorry they couldn't reply straight away, but they gotten so many e-mails lately, that it was hard for them to reply to all of them at once. Further on in this e-mail they gave me the ICQ contact number of one of the people who runs this site, his name is David, so I added him to my ICQ list, and there we talked.
He told me about Jesus Christ, how He can change my life, how I could have salvation and eternal life through Him, He told me about His death on the cross that made us free from the power of sin. He told me that I can have Jesus in my life with just one prayer, and that this prayer was the declaration to accept Him into my life. Knowing I had nothing to lose, and that I was desperately seeking help, I made this prayer, and this was the absolute turning point of my life.
At first I was kind of thinking "awesome, I have Jesus in my life now", not really thinking much more than that at the time, but deep inside I felt something had changed. David and I would talk every now and then as I was developing as a Christian; he would give me help and advice about God all the time. He said I should get a bible, but I did not have one, nor did I have the money to buy one. A woman called Audrey from Godhelpmeplease.com sent me one all the way from Ireland to here in Australia; it was a New Testament, The Message translation. At first, I had trouble reading it and understanding it. David told me to pray for the Holy Spirit to help me read and understand it, and so I did, and it God really answered my prayer on that one, because I began to read the bible a lot, almost every night, and I could understand it so much better.
Through the Word of God I was gaining so much knowledge, I was enjoying reading it too, I got into praying as well, and one particular prayer I made was "Lord, please take my depression away", and by the end of that very year, by depression was gone, completely. My psychiatrist was amazed, she claimed I was resilient and asked what had led to my recovery, I told her ever since I became a Christian my life had changed so much. I was not resilient, it is Jesus who has raised me from the ashes and made me the person I am today, Gods hand was upon me indeed, and the more I reached out for God, the more He changed my life
I was saved was in June 2002, and it was by 2003 that my life really began to take off, I just started college that year, and things were so much better there. As I drew closer and closer to God, many of the problems I had in my life before started to fade away, over time, I have quit marijuana, drinking, all through prayer and the power of God. The Holy Spirit was upon my family, I knew this because they started to change, I was able to get along with my Dad better, whom, in the past, I always had problems with, and we always got into arguments, yelling at each other. I would always be in tears and shame; I would even run away from home sometimes to try to escape this.
I gained more confidence, and self-esteem, and I have a lot more friends now, who love me and care for me, and stay true and loyal to me, which surely made up for some of the friends I had in the past who would turn their back on me in a second for some popularity. I used to be a bit overweight too, and a lot of people made fun of me because of this, through all my life, so I prayed to lose weight, and I have, not only that, but I'm into weights and exercising now too, so I have gained some muscle. Probably a long while after I got saved, did I begin to go to church, there I made fellowship with other Christians, and I went there every Sunday, really learning about God.
Jesus has made me such a happier person. A deep joy inside of me grows and grows the more I live for Him. I am forever thankful because He has changed my life so much for the better, and my life continues to change for the better with every day, my walk with Jesus never ends, there is always more to live for and see. I have become very faithful and more joyous in all that I do in my life for Jesus Christ. I know that He has a plan and a purpose for my life, He gives me all the hope in the world, and this is my future.
I never grew under the influences of any churches or religions or denominations, when I was first saved, I grew upon the Word of God purely, with David to help me along the way. If it were not for Jesus I probably would not be here today, I am born again, into this awesome life of living for Jesus Christ , and nothing else could make me happier. I love Him so much for all He has done for me. Now that I am saved, I plan to help other people come to know Jesus Christ, and be saved too. He has not only done the things I have mentioned in this testimony, but He has done so much more than this, but of all the things Jesus has done in my life, they would not be able to fit into this testimony.
POSTSCRIPT
I turned 19 on the 30th of December this year!, I wrote my testimony when I was 17, so that's 2 years or so since my testimony was written!
Anyway, this year has been very hard, but it has grown me, and I feel much more mature in faith. It was prophesied over me at the end of last year that "At the moment God is weeding out all the bad things in you and your life, and when He is ready, He will launch you off in the right direction, and whatever you end up doing, you will absolutely love".
I've experienced the first part of that prophecy! that's for sure, and I wait on the Lord for the second half.
One thing I've learned this year (2005) is that, no matter how bad things look around you, as long as you are with the Lord, He is with you, even if we are faithless, He remains faithful.. and if we endure with Him, we shall also reign with Him.
God bless everyone on this site and all the guests and visitors
Stephen Macafee
اگر سرعت اینترنت شما کمه مطمئن باشید ما شما رو درک می کنیم!در این وبلاگ سعی شده بازی های بسیار کم حجمی معرفی بشه.امیدوارم در کارم موفق بوده باشم.منتظر شنیدن نظرات گرمتون هستم.در ضمن اين وبلاگ تابع قوانين فيلترينگ جمهوري اسلامي ايران بوده و ذكر هرگونه مطلب توهين آْميز يا خلاف عرف در اين وبلاگ ممنوع است.در ضمن مديريت اين وبلاگ هيچ گونه مسئوليتي را در قبال سايتهايي كه در قسمت پيوند ها ذكر شده اند قبول نمي كند.